an exciting day with many exciting things happening around

in the morning, i woke up at 5.15am, stirring in my bed for 15 minutes b4 getting up.. i juz feel so damn lazy to wake up.. as i've been sleeping till the sun come up for the past few weeks..
hmm.. the uncle picked me up at abt 6.20am.. and den, i squeezed in that small red kancil with 4 other ppl..

my driving test took place in ulu langat.. but, actually, where is it? i oso duno.. but, i know tat it is quite far away from my hse.. far far away.. my dad say it's near kajang.. hehe..^^

at first, i was so damn nervous.. when i was practising in the morning, i juz didn't know why i cant go up and down the mountain smoothly.. aft practising, v had to wait for the real exam to take place.. huh..@@ so worried and nervous.. lucky i was the 5th to sit for the driving test.. i never like to be the first.. however, i like to be infront.. juz not the first.. den, i dun hv to worry so much.. hehe^^

when i drove up the mountain, i thought i din stop in the yellow line.. but, lucky the JPJ guy say it's ok.. wow.. happy.. so, i passed the "bahagian" i worried most.. den, the parking and the 3-point turn easy job lar.. wakaka^^ happy.. so, i passed lo..^^ happy..

on the road leh.. sure pass de lar.. so, pass dy oso.. i'm so happy..!! daddy say might buy me a car.. but, mayb juz a kancil o.. haiz.. but, nvm lo.. kancil so small.. only cute cute mar.. hehe^^ juz be grateful lo.. hehe...

then, i rushed straight back home, changed my clothes, change shoe, den go out again lo.. hv to eat in the car, on the way to menara celcom where my training would be.. when i went in, every1's eyes were on me.. i felt so "fish".. haiz.. aft tat den juz sit there and listen to those trainers to talk lo.. so bored.. sometimes it was fun, sometimes not.. but, duno y leh?? feel very tired lar~~

actually, i hope can faster start accepting calls.. i mean faster learn how to accept calls lo.. cuz, tat will be more fun.. hehe^^ k lo..
happiness.. this job is a six months contract.. so, i oso not sure if i will finish the contract anot.. mayb not lo.. hehe^^

tired... but, now watching dollhouse.. very nice movie.. every monday, 9.30pm to 10.30pm..
it's a very unique movie.. so, i love it very much..^^

1st time Interview, got 1st office job..

last night, i recieved a msg for the position i applied for through Kelly Services.. ^^ dey asked me to go for interview today at 10am.. actually, i was really nervous.. really really.. never thought that i would go for the interview.. hehe^^ the interview start at 10am.. but, me n my mummy, and sister reached at 9am.. hehe.. juz in case i'm late.. wakaka..

so, v had breakfast opposite the building.. at ayamas.. hehe^^

i was the first interviewee to reach leh.. mayb bcuz this is the first time.. so, i was really nervous.. when i went in, v had to fill up forms.. do an assesment, typing test and then aft tat interview.. but, it was a group interview.. i was so nervous tat i stammered.. especially when they requested non-malays to speak in malay.. haiz.. but then, aft tat when i was asked to continue in english, i felt better..

there, i made frenz with few ppl.. Zul, Jason, Barwani.. dey r reli nice ppl.. Jason interviewed my mandarin.. hehe^^

aft tat, i recieved news tat i was selected.. hooray!!!.. so, i hv to report duty on monday lo.. the coming monday(23/11/09).. my first office job leh.. wid 6months contract..

but, aft tat i realised tat my driving test is also on monday.. how?? lucky Zul is good.. He said tat i can come in late tat day.. i reli look forward to start working leh.. but, i hv to go through 1months training.. however, still hv money lar.. hehe^^ happy!! at least, i'm not so bored at home lo.. dun waste time..

hmm.. so happy!! hope tat everything goes on well lo.. == believe in me??
i believe in myself..

muacks muacks.. love every1 lo.. ^^

开心伤心--轮流转

果然不出我所料。。我就知道会失望。。但是，这一次我告诉自己，我应该相信他。。因为，我知道他爱我。。况且，他为了我特地请假。。所以，我蛮有信心这一次我们可以出去了。。
然而，就和以往一 样。。期望越高，失望就越高。。其实，心里不是很好受，所以就在这里发泄一下。。为什么它可以一次又一次的放我飞机? 对我说过的话，都不算话。。可以就这样食言。。
最后，在逼不得已的情况下（我伤心时）他才说要去。。为什么它酱喜欢这样啊？每次都说到我已经不想去了，才来说要去。。不只是今天，其实常常都会这样。。逼我做一些明知道我不喜欢的选择，之后，就说在玩而已。。？！最不开心的，就是，他在他兄弟面前竟然可以误导他们误会我。。 就是很喜欢一起来说我吗？我的心是多么的痛。。

有人说，我一直烦他。。一直sms他。。 他都没有站出来为我说话。。 是谁要烦他啊？？ 我要是不会他的sms，他就会一直miss call 我。。那，是我烦他吗？？爷爷的。。

我之所以之后说不想去了，不是在闹脾气，是因为，我知道在这种情况下，我和他都不会有心情逛。。那么，去到那么远的地方，都没有意义。。而且，那时都很迟了，去到times square，不到几分钟又要赶回来吗？？没意义嘛。。

但是，我还是想谢谢dear~ 因为，我们在jusco逛的时候，又被他疼的感觉。。我真得很开心。。可以那样紧紧地握着他的手，我已经心满意足。。有时，他给我的温暖是没有人能给到的。。我真得很谢谢他之后为我做的事。。
他也说得对。。何必浪费钱去买多一件衣咧。。虽然我还是很想买，但是，都没机会啦。。所以， 就算咯。。只是一个prom 而已嘛。。有什么酱大不了？！哈哈。。

达令。。我爱你。。我知道你不喜欢逛街，但是，我会耐心的等你接受的。。可是，不知道几时会失去耐性哦？！嘿嘿。。希望明天，能看到帅帅的你。。就算不帅，还是我的最爱=p

对不起啊。。dear~我在这里写的，纯粹发泄。。不要介意哦。。

when u're happy, everything seems to go on well^^
hehe^^ actually, today i wasn't very happy too.. but, duno leh? suddenly i feel alot better.. mayb cuz my dear's mood became better gua.. n, i start to think less..
juz watch movie all day and read a story book "DEADLINE".. it's quite interesting to read it..

hmm.. my dear dear say 2molo will accompany me to go shopping o!!^^ hooray!! i feel so happy.. but, duno leh~~ always i'm happy dy den some things will juz go wrong.. den, not happy dy lo..
hope this time it wont lo..
duno leh??!! @@

2molo hope tat i can find the dress i like as fast as possible lo.. duwan waste time oso lo.. hehe..
k lar.. very late dy.. my dad want chase me up dy.. as usual.. wakaka.. muacks muacks n nite nite to all my frenz and also my family tat i love..

before 2012, i hope tat i can make every1 around me feel happy all the time.. ^^ smile lo..
even when u're sad, juz try to smile.. it will make u feel better.. i think..

伤心透。。

气死我了啦。。干嘛这么凶啊？
想在这里骂他的时候，发泄一下。。突然他告诉我他压力过渡。。都生气不成了。。突然好担心他。。 他为了工作，好像真的好辛苦。。我又帮不上忙。。我是不是没有用？？不知道啦。
我现在真的超级想要找到工作做啊！！那样，我应该可以帮到他。。

唉。。会不会是我身边的人心情都很低落呢？我心情也蛮低落的。。怎么办？顺豪又不开心，希廉也不开心，元莉咧。。不知道开不开心。。彦杰咧。。弄到我不开心T.T。。哼！！没有啦。。开玩笑而已啦。。我的父母。。我都不知道是我的心理作用呢？还是他们真的偏心。。 最近，怎么感觉上我很像家里新请来的工人啊？！什么东西，都要我做。。以前，都是一起做哒。。不然，至少也好声好气吧！！现在，怎么好象都是我的责任啊？！拿碗去厨房很难吗？全部人把碟留在我的面前。。连说一声都没有。。就旨意我把碟拿去厨房。。还要帮他们洗。。

我爸咧。。真是好意思。。把椅子拉出来将简单的事，他都不会做。。站在椅子前，叫我过去搬。。也都不帮忙一下。。（椅子还蛮重的）我帮他，他就当我是工人啦？？生气！！
妈妈咧。。都不知道最近怎么了？整天发脾气。。还是发我的脾气咧。。我做错了什么哦？？

有时，就觉得自己超幸福的。。但是，低落的时候好像什么都变得不好了。。
顺豪又发脾气了。。我真的好烦哦。。但是，我不想成为他的负担。。其实，真得很想骂他一顿。。但是，还是算了吧。。笑啦。。

要逗他了。。不能说了。。 就这样吧。。希望这一切的问题赶快结束。。

shopping at sunway~~

today, i go sunway piramid oo... first time go to asian avenue leh.. but, it's reli a different world from the other parts from sunway oo...
it's very fun.. hehe^^ but, i still din see any dress tat i like... haiyo.. got lar.. i saw a nice dress.. but, it's still not better than my last 1.. so, duwan lo.. i only have 4 more days to choose my dress dy.. eh..
on the other hand, u saw a very unique high heels leh.. but, got abit weird lar... duno i will regret buying it anot leh?? hehe^^
i also saw a bag.. quite cute.. but, again.. still considering.. haiyo.. so, today din even buy anything.. haiyo.. monday or tuesday muz go buy lar!!!

o ya~~ today my dear go kuantan leh.. so miss him.. but, i m worried even more.. b4 tat, i heard tat they were going to sleep in a hostel without electricity.. i was so angry leh...
but, lucky now dey staying in the hotel..
ystr reli happy.. cuz, tat person din angry dy.. mayb juz misunderstood.. hehe^^ ystr tat person bluff me.. i thought is my dear msn wid me leh.. noty "bear"...

now, feel reli happy.. missing my dear.. when he come back i will massage u ya..^^

meaningless day..

wasting time lar... reli feel tat i'm reli wasting time.. but, wat else can i do?? every1 seems to be too busy to accompany me..

today, all i did was juz watch movie.. watch the whole day.. till i have no more movies to watch.. haiz.. who can give me suggestion on wat movie to watch a?? i think mayb i watch movie too long dy... till now i have reli terrible headache... haiz..

no food to eat!! today, breakfast, lunch and dinner oso nid to prepare myself.. reli lazy dy.. maggi oso eat dy.. i dun feel like eating it again.. i only eat maggi once a week.. cuz, it is unhealthy.. so, now me and my sis hv no food.. but, i reli dun feel like eating it again.. haiz..T.T

2molo, dear will be going to kuantan for 2 days.. however, tonight i still dun have the chance to even meet him.. huh..T.T reli juz dun feel happy.. dun feel well with my terrible headache.. and, dun feel full with my growling stomach.. haiz..

nvm lar.. at the end of the day, i juz have to tell myself.. smile!!^^
gambateh!!!!!! hope so lar..

waltz... cha cha... n, bubur cha cha...

today leh.. go learn waltz leh.. n, cha cha.. but, din learn bubur cha cha lar.. hehe^^
very fun leh.. i love dancing.. but, i duno how to dance.. so, today can learn a free lesson, i'm reli so happy... hehe^^.. i reli want find a dancing academy lar~~~ den, i can learn all i want lo..
but, i learn things always hangat-hangat tahi ayam de.. as they say, new broom sweeps clean..

now tat i noe bits of these 2 dances, i reli hope to learn more leh... so fun.. happy!!!!! but, duno lar.. today a kuan din go oso... only 3 gals go... so, i oso duno wat to do.. quite bored.. duno leh.. mayb cuz today my mood not very good... so, lazy to go and become dai b.. haha^^

haiyo.. prom is nearer and nearer.. but, i still cant find a nice dress.. act, i oso din go shopping.. how to find?? no 1 accompany me shopping a... haiz... so cham..

however, i bought a nice hair clip today.. reli happy.. cuz, it's reli nice.. wakaka...
but, quite expensive leh.. ^^

erm.. juz now heard dear say, some1 say i'm bothering.. duno y, i feel sad.. haiz.. i reli mind very much on how ppl see me.. but, is it good?? no ones perfect.. i noe.. but, i juz dun like tat kinda feeling.. weird.. dear~ tat's y i say i feel unhappy now..

always unhappy not good de leh... haiyo...

today, i saw the newspaper.. again.. there's a young child.. 6 year old girl got abbused..
i reli hate those ppl tat torture those small innocent kids.. wat do dey think their lifes are for??? to live in fear, to live in such torture?? stupid ppl.. no wonder the world might end in 2012..
if dey like to hurt ppl so much, y cant dey juz hurt themselves?? dey can even go out and fight with other ppl.. y hurt children tat cant even defend themselves??
how would all these children grow?? even if they are taken away from their insane parents, will they feel happy?? they will become orphans!!!!!!!!!

i'm reli grateful.. to grow up in a happy and felicity family.. i reli thank God for everything i have... muacks...

drive my but but car~~

ystr leh.. i first time learn driving o... so fun.. once i got into the car, den i very happy dy.. cuz, my last driving school is so yucks.. however, this time driving oso not perfect lar.. always delay again and again.. until tuesday tat time he saw my license going to expired dy den only call me and book time... haiz...

ystr o~~~ so happy lar... i drove for rounds and rounds.. so fun.. juz like playing toy car.. wakaka^^.. din mati engine leh... hehe..^^ pro leh~~~
but, my left leg too tired dy aft going for so many rounds.. so, i plan to 偷懒awhile lo..
den, MATI ENGINE dy... haiyo...
i thought i so pro de.. wont mati.. but, mati dy lo.. so, cant do anything oso...

den, the 2nd and 3rd time i mati engine reli very 没面leh... haiz...
once i reach the main road, i became too nervous.. i see many cars infront, and at the back.. so, i panicked... den, mati engine twice in a row.. haiyo... so cham...

4th time leh... no more dy lar.. no 4th time.. 3 times ady enough.
the happiest thing is, i drove myself home leh... yeah!!!! i am so so pro... wau...!!!!
i hope tat i wont forget this day lar.. hehe..^^

at night, dear pick me up from my house.. den, i oso duno wat happened.. and, how it happened..
i oso duno if i spoiled it... the scanner wire broke... haiz.. tat incident made both of us very unahppy.. and, v ended up very unhappy... i tried to sleep.. but, i juz cant... so, cry lo.. wakaka..

haiya.. these few days.. reli feel quite unhappy de.. tat person reli so beh song me meh?? reli dun understand.. duno wat make tat person so weird towards me... haiz.. T.T

sunway!!!

today leh.. go ice skating leh.. so fun^^ but, always go out with frenz, it is not what we play.. but, it is who we go with.. just feel very happy to spend time with my frenz..

hehe^^ no matter wat v do.. or how boring it is... however, din take picture leh.. y will forget leh...
first time abt 20 ppl go ice skating together leh... haiyo...

today, din go shopping leh.. so, feel like still hv sth din do yet... haha..
nvm lar... i first time use my own "1 malaysia" de touch n go leh... wakaka^^

now, every night oso go out.. duno y?? hv very shuang de feeling... but, today quite sad..
act, is very sad.. haiz.. i waited at the lrt station for half an hour, he oso din reach.. make me very very angry...so, i juz walk home myself.. but, after tat, i know it is not his fault.. so, haiz...
duno lar.. many different kinds of feeling mixed up.. duno wat i'm thinking now oso..

this is tuesday write de.. 10/11/09

07/11/2009, 我们毕业了！

昨天，坐车坐到要生要死咧。。从中华，去到damansara附近（去食堂日-结果去吃mc，因为食物卖完了），去到1 utama（没位停车）, 再去subang（走错路），然后，再回到1 utama（经过）， 再回setapak（wangsa walk的电影院还没开）, 然后，再去kepong（看戏）, 再回到setapak（吃晚餐）, 之后，才回家。。
有没有觉得很厉害咧。。 酱远，兜来兜去，都可以到新加坡了啦。。

这回事的来头很长，好难解释哦。。括号解释了。。太夸张了。。

哈哈。。最近，好像有些懒得写blog 了。。 我就是这样贪新厌旧。。哈哈。。
可是，下记载下来，昨晚的回忆，昨晚，哈比很累，不想在我回的~~ 可是，他只是口是心非啦。。然而，听到了我也是不开心。。所以，昨晚驾车在我回家时，他就握着我的手。。十指紧扣。。还近牙退牙都不放开我的手哦！！ 我好感动。。嘿嘿。。^^超开心的。。
所以，我要记下来，将才不会忘记。。

昨天离开了中华，没有哭。。 好像有很奇怪的感觉。。可是，现在想回去，都想哭了。。以后，就没得再进入中华，穿着校服，坐在课室上课了。。没得吃便宜的食物了。。没得一起闹，一起玩了。。以后大家出去了，走各自的路，又不知道几时可以再相聚在一起了。。 十年吗？二十？？ 不要到我们退休的时候才相聚好吗？ 因为，那时，都没有美女帅哥看了。。看你们这些老婆婆老公公咩？？

中华，离别了。。
中华仔们，再见了。。

对了，朋友们，对不起，昨天又没有陪你们，我自己都觉得衰咧。。
我每次都酱，你们应该会不爽吧。。 对不起！！

bowling..

today, very fun leh.. so long din go bowling dy.. love it so so much... of course, i love my frenz too lar...cuz, if i bowl alone den not fun also lar... haha..^^
however, for so long, i hv not been bowling, now my marks is juz so damn low.. but, i'm happy too.. cuz, can meet my dai b frenz n dai b wid dem.. haha.. i cant stay "high b" for too long leh.. it is like trying to torture me...
juz now, i played poker o!!haha.. quite fun lar.. n den, now i'm looking for a part time job lo.. act, these few days go back to school hv many things to do de.. but, i'm juz too lazy to do it.. so, juz lazy lazy watch movie lar... blah blah blah...

my driving a!!!!!!!!!! from 1 driving school change to another.. ady use up alot of time dy.. my 19 yr old birthday oso coming liao lar... huh!!!
my last L license ady expired dy lar.. now make another 1.. going to expired on the 30/11/09.. but, till now i still din hv 1 driving lesson yet... b4 dis, i had exam, so suan le.. mayb it is destined tat i should spend more time studying.. cuz, everytime, my driving class juz cancels at the last minute..
now, aft i finish exam dy, i cant contact my driving teacher.. i sms him, he doesn't reply.. i call, he doesn't answer.. reli quite "beh da han" dy!!!!!
i muz get my driving license b4 29/11/09 lar!!!! tat day is my mum's birthday.. i want give her a suprise.. i want to take her out.. n, spend time wid her... but, seems like it is quite hard for me to get my p license so fast...T.T
going to graduate reli reli soon.. but, i dun feel sad leaving leh.. duno y?? this years class reli no feel.. every1 does their own things.. n, they r ady in groups.. so, if u're left out, juz stay out...
haiz.. reli miss my (sakai)s.. i rather all sakai like LKS keep on bully me oso duwan feel so weird lar in class lar...(see, u so bad) last yr in skul dy.. but, dun hv tat last bit of memory wid my classmates...

erm.. gambateh a!! (sakai)s.. when graduation i think i will cry when see u all lar... T.T..
k lar... gambateh to all... rmbr dun forget me..

记小过？！

今天， 也太倒霉了吧。。我们不是快要毕业了吗？原本记录干干净净。。就因为今天贪玩一下。。哎哟。。今天啊！！真的是闷到发霉了。。酱咧。。就去食堂和其他朋友吃东西咯。。哪知，倒霉到这样。。 一到哪里，坐下来谈一下天，训导就来了！！哇！！吓死人了啦~~我们七个，平时有福同享，终于可以有难同当了！！哇哈哈。。 虽然有点担心。。但是，也有点刺激。。哎呀。。好彩，我妈妈很好谈，哈哈哈。。 所以咧。。就算打给我妈妈都不会有事。。

回到家咧。。 我煮东西咧。。真厉害！！以前咧，我连鞋都要工人帮我穿咧。。开厨房的煤气炉都不会。。吃饭不收完。。现在，我真的都佩服自己。。哈哈。。 因为，我会煮意大利面！！哈哈。。但是咧。。就只会这个。。要我煮别的，好像不是很可能。。哈哈。。

ann 低b 的嘛。。你们不能要求太多。。

有人牙痛，所以想吃意大利面。。什么道理咧？？哈哈。。因为他喜欢吃意大利面， 所以变成说，我只会煮意大利面。。 哎哟。。现在没工人，就被人当工人了。。T.T 怎么会那么可怜呢？？

今天一直做家务。。不累就假咯。。但是，我很怪的。。妹妹要考试了，让他有多点时间读书吧。。我考试时，他也很体谅我一下的~~

对了，很愤怒下咧。。明明已经计划好要出街了的。。因为什么班级照，就不能出街。。好久没出去了。。 我真的好想出去玩啊！！！ 几时可以痛快的玩一下啊！！！！！ 我要玩！！

无所事事

今天咧。。还蛮开心的。。因为反正都和好了！ 哈哈。。
今天有人要变智慧点咯。开始长智慧牙了！！=p 但是，很痛苦下。。他说宁可长笨蛋牙。。也许不会那么痛！！他都是笨蛋了啦。。不用笨蛋牙了的。看到不要生气哦！

今天有点闷闷哦。。只能对着电脑，还有，看《烈火雄心3》咯。。 看了连续6个小时，不知道要说显，还是爽。。哈哈。。

很期待明天上学，不用读书，可以和朋友聚在学校。。这星期应该会是6年来最幸福的一个星期吧。。超开心朝期待的。。 希望明天可以有48个小时吧。。

最近，我在想办法找工作哦！！ 但是咧。。挑剔点。。 工钱不高都不要。。哈哈。。当然咯。。要我帮他打工，是他的福气咧。。 还不给多点钱咩？！

今天没人陪

你到底去了哪里？你常说，我对你很重要。。比你自己还要重要。。但是，你只有在需要我时，我才显得重要。。
那么其他时候呢？你要我把自己当隐形人吗？
我也有我的脾气，我也有需要你的时候。。 但是，你在哪里？
有时，我很愤怒。。因为，我觉得你不会尊重我。。虽然我们是情侣。。但是，难道就不用顾虑对方的感受吗？我无时无刻，说的每句话，都会三思。。为的只是不想成为你的负担，成为你的烦恼。。更不想要因为一时的脾气儿让你不开心。。但是，好像都只是在做单方面的牺牲。。

我知道你爱我。。 我同样也很爱你。。但是，你好象不懂得爱我。。我不想计较。。但是，有时我不能。。我也是人啊！！我常常问你“你有多爱我。“不是因为我不知道。而是我看不见。

有。我看得见。。当你心情好时，我看得见。。 当你需要我时，我看得见。。当你心情不好需要我安慰时，我看得见。。当你孤单需要我的陪伴时，我看得见。。那，当我心情不好时，你在哪？我需要你时，你在哪？我伤心时，你在哪？当我孤单时，你在哪？

我不敢说你不好。。因为我也不好。。我只希望，你能够让我感受到被爱。。否则，你说的永远，真的会很遥远。。我能够永远爱你，这我能向你承诺。但是，我不能承诺的是，我能不能够永远和你在一起。。

我现在这样写，你应该会生气。。对不起。。这几天，我都很不开心。。但是，没有人知道。。最失望的是，你也没发现。。
看过就算了。。我已经舒服多了。。^^

babies!!^^ i want 1 too..

Today, my cousin's wife juz gave birth... yeah... my fourth niece.. yup... i had already been a aunty for a long time...

haha.. old old aunty.. no lar.. actually i'm young.. haiz.. like talking to myself..^^

Miley(baby's name) is born on 01/11/09.. 6.35pm.. 2.99kg.. wow.. so cute...
but, i din see her in person yet.. so, i'll hv to wait till i get to see her b4 i can take picture lo..

when i see her, i imagined wat will happen next time when i give birth.. haha.. i want to hv babies too^^ but, not now lar..==

This small handsome boy is my godmother's son lar.. not my niece.. but, use as a baby photo lo.. he is the most handsome, hunky baby boy i've ever seen., reli leng zai.. when i saw him the first time, wah.. reli let him "pikat" dy..
my name is michael.. i live in america... hehe^^ bleuk..=P



cutie babies.. hahaha^^
i love babies so much...